My Demons...

As I sit here and reflect on my life this past year only one thing comes to mind...How did I get here? I always believed in marriage and hoped that it would last forever but apparently my life has a different ending. I get to choose who I let into my new world and what type of goals and aspirations I want to accomplish. Listen, life nor love is an exact science but good things should happen to good people. I know that I myself am not a perfect saint but I bare no ill will towards those who have harmed me.

Am I angry that my ex husband walked out on our family with all of my money and items I bought him...Hell Yes! Am I angry that he shacked up with my ex best friend and her kids...Hell Yes! But guess what, all of the pain, cheating and verbal abuse he inflicted on me has not defined me. Do these feelings make me want to change the outcome of my life now...NEVER!!!

I know what I want in my life and what I am capable of and no man can give me that. Do I want to have someone in my life someday, of course, I'm only human but I will not change for anyone ever again. I will also never marry again (my choice). Is there love out there??? Maybe...It depends on what we call love! ❤️